Cause im just not your princess,

I dont know how to describe this feeling I have.
I have this pain piercing through my heart like no one’s business,
I can’t smile like I want to,
I want to just talk to you, but things go differently when I see you,
I constantly wonder where you went to,
I repeatedly wonder what is your relationship with her,
& im starting to hate her — but is it because of you?
I though I liked the other him. But when I heard about you going out with her, I went trembling with anger.
On what rights had she to go out with you?
But when I thought again, it was me who did the dumping.
& now im crying out loud, silently begging you not to go.
Why?
& is this feeling im having now, jealousy?
If it’s so, I thought I no longer like you. I detested you, didn’t I?
I went out w someone else to piss you off.
I fell crazily in love with someone else.
& yet im ridiculously hating her.
Sorry.
I guess I should learn by now that crying doesn’t help.
Not anymore.
He will never love me the same, not the second time.
He won’t give me the chance to break his heart; a second time.
He just won’t care about me anymore.
& things doesn’t happen a second time just cause you want it.
Shut up, & dry your tears, lynette.
Bye.
